Life right now is one wicked roller coaster for me. There are good days and then there are bad days. It seems to me that there are more bad than good for me right now. Let me define what I mean by ‘good’ and ‘bad’:
- Bad = I go through out the day and fall asleep wondering if I’ll ever be able to communicate well in Spanish; I may have severe mental blocks when someone is talking, their mouth is moving, but nothing registers; We’re in class, I try to join in the language activity only to find that I’m totally off base and have missed the context..the teacher actually just gave instructions that everyone else heard and understood but apparently I didn’t get the memo; I work for 2 hours writing 2 paragraphs when Word crashes and the only thing I’m able to recover is my first sentence (please do not preach to me about saving often), my keys were the first thing I saw and they ended up embedded in the wall (not quite);
- Good = actually communicating with someone (listening and talking) AND they understand you…period.
I’ve come to find out, one of the most frustrating things in life right now is my communication with Tara. My day is so full of mis-communication, mis-understanding, and working hard trying to communicate in an understandable way, not that that’s bad, that’s part of language learning. But when I can’t seem to communicate in my own language to my own wife…the patience meter starts blowing steam, its red-lining…OH MY! ARGH! Can you hear the frustration. During any other time in our life these seemingly minute mis-communications just bounce off and life goes on, but now…all I want to do is communicate and I can’t even seem to do that with my own wife!
I started writing this post wanting to tell you about a little adventure we had, but got caught up in “Good and Bad” days. Basically, I’ve had a few good days now, started by a little adventure and continued by some divine encouragement. If I have time I’ll post again soon with a story about my last few day.
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