When having a chat with my brother today, it struck me (and I mean STRUCK me) that there is only 9 days until we leave for Argentina. My brother by the way, is taking care of our three kitties and dog while we are gone. He lives in VA, so to stay in Chesapeake Beach and have to drive to Fairfax County in the morning is a huge sacrifice on his part. He doesn’t say that, but I KNOW THAT! He’s a good brother!
Anyway…when I said out loud that it was about a week away, all of a sudden I got this uncomfortable feeling in the pit of my stomach. It struck me that maybe, just maybe I had made the wrong decision. What if I couldn’t live up to….MY expectations of myself??? What if I somehow failed…myself, Brian and Tara, or worse yet…God?? Well…needless to say…I started to have a little “moment”. So I began to talk to myself about this whole thing. In this discussion…someone else kept saying, “YOUR expectations?”, ” “what is it exactly that YOU think YOU are going to do?” Now, you must understand…my voice carries, so this other voice didn’t seem to be getting through! Later, having dinner with a friend, she commented to me, referencing about another subject, “who do you think you are? you aren’t going to do anything, I AM!” (my interpretation) He spoke a bit louder this time…”With man this is impossible, but with God all things are possible.” (Matthew 19:26) God will take care of it…he doesn’t want me to screw up His work, does he? Besides, what ARE my expectations? I don’t really have any, because I really don’t know what I will be doing. God knows me, better than myself. So, if he gives me something to do, then he will give me the means to do it!! My desire is to do what is needed of me, for Him. To be honest, NOT knowing really what I would be doing was freeing at first, then, today, it became a frightening prospect. But, He will be with me, with my team and it will all be good. Calm once again.
Now, back to the packing issue. 2 carry-ons….seriously? :- ) I have decided to forego taking my makeup! That will cut out quite a bit of space! Besides, God made me…He thinks I am beautiful WITHOUT the makeup right?! The other tough decision was to only take ONE extra pair of shoes besides what Iwould be wearing. Does anyone know what this means to a woman?? In essence NINE DAYS WITH ONLY TWO PAIRS OF SHOES??! Tennis shoes and flip flops no less…course really…two of the most comfortable shoes you could wear! Well, that means I should be able to handle packing into 2 carryons. :- ) (I will let you know how that all REALLY works out!)
Sunday, tomorrow, we have another team meeting. I always feel better after the meetings.
Till next time…
Happy Saturday eve to everyone!
And of course God is not the ONLY one who thinks Kellie is beautiful without her make-up!
And I am going to try and pack light enough that just MAYBE she can get in an extra pair of shoes, particularly since I will only need one pair, and will be wearing them!
You crack me up. It will all work out…..